frustrations on dating

a blog for the dating website i'm on, turned bad. that's why it's here and not there.

i am a really honest person. i wear my heart on my sleeve, and it's usually pretty obvious (i think) what i think about someone. i have no idea why anyone would do otherwise. i'm not into playing games. i'm not patient, i jump head first into everything. i'm not into leading on, or being lead on. the only problem is that a lot of people aren't as forward as i am. so i get confused. well, some people (like those who message me talking about what sex would be like with them) are WAY too forward. i never know if someone is interested, not interested, want to be friends, want to just sleep together, whatever. at least the guys that email me about sex are forward about what they want with me. do guys do what girls go through with all this confusion bs? do i email them? do i text or call? should i wait until they email, text or call me? are they done with me? who the hell knows, and for once i would appreciate being told flat out when someone is tired of me. maybe i'm being too needy, maybe i'm taking things too seriously or personally. i don't know.

i don't see how people on this website have been online for a month and find someone to date. i've been on here for six and i've found jack. i've averaged about one date a month. i've made some friends out of that. i dated a couple for a short period. but as soon as it got to that point of yes, we are dating, it fell apart. i really just want someone to date for long enough to get familiar with, but not forever. i want someone to care about. i care about people really easily, and the times that i have started to care about someone, they vanish. i wish they would at least tell me sorry.